Engineering works on a series of predictable things. It is the epitome of predicability. Enter in the correct values for this certain set of variables and you know what the answer will be. You are given predictability. It’s your window to the future because we know how the variables will act given the set of values.

With Christ, it seems a bit different. Actually, seems opposite. Instead of being given the variables, the “here and now” values, we’re promised the result. The end. Our window to the future isn’t dependent on the perfect predictability of the present variables, but on our own faith in what he has promised us.

I find myself back in a struggle I’ve seen him prove himself through. I have seen the outcome, have seen him say “I’ve got this” but am still afraid of what is happening.

I know the outcome, I know the end. Whether I have faith in it or not is not my point. I know what He promises and what He told me.

This leaves the issue to the variables and who should decide what value to put on what. My faith is even more weak in this area. Maybe not so much faith as it is wisdom. I don’t know if I should be waiting for Him to say “this is what goes there” or if I should lean into him and act in a direction.

A friend told me to read Proverbs to gain wisdom. That’s probably a good starting point.